Tuesday, May 09, 2006
Undo
How do things go from being so good and perfect, to “Oh shit I fucked it up again”? In a gut reaction I did something that in hindsight was quite stupid and unnecessary. It was unintentionally hurtful. And now I’m in the dog house again.
Life needs to have an Undo feature. Stupid things keep getting into my brain and falling out of my mouth or out into my actions, and the end results are always disastrous. Everything was going so good, so wonderfully. I was in heaven. Why do we hurt the ones we love? It’s never intentional. What I actually meant came out all wrong and my original meaning doesn’t matter anymore because the harm is already done. No amount of apologizing can erase the damage. No explanation can adjust things to the way you wanted things to go.
Undo. I need an Undo button. I need to backtrack, back to those perfect moments prior to my bouts of stupidity. Back to that moment when I had a choice. Approach it with a clear head this time, make the right decisions and word choices, communicate what you really meant.
Communication is so key, every councellor will tell you this, to saving a relationship. But communicating the wrong thing, however unintentional, will often set you back. So all I can do is wait for the storm to blow over. An Undo button would be so much better.
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